Monday December 1, 2008

I can't believe December is already here. WOW, where has the year gone? I can say that I have at least two high lights this year. The first one been when me, my brother, and my friend Arthur went to Los Angeles for the 2008 Anime Expo. I won't forget that for any time soon. Then second would be me going with a few friends to Morro Bay. First time that has happen in my, ahem... boring life. Well, with that said, I guess my life can only get better and more exciting. I should probably put "getting a girlfriend" in the top of my list for 2009 and "get another job" for second and third "work harder at school."

Now that I think about it, school just doesn't seem the same anymore. During my high school years it was all lay out for me. My counselor would tell me what to take for each semester and from that I guess they expect us to decide what we wanted to do after we graduated. Well, at that time I didn't know what to do. I guess I should have gone with the music program in COS right after I graduated then maybe right now I would have had accomplished something. But that is not the case, I decided to take a year off which was a total waste. No school, no job. I'm surprised I didn't take my life. Why should I have gone into music right away you ask? Well, ever since I was in the fifth grade I started playing the cello, and by accident if may add. But I loved that instrument. I gave it my all and even took private lessons thanks to my wonderful music teacher in middle school. And if it wasn't for her I don't think I would have gotten so good at the instrument. She suggested for me to take the lessons and I did and learned for my private teacher, Dr. Walden. Now, though, I feel as if I have abandoned music since I don't fell the motivation for it and because I quit the music program so abruptly the second semester. I should have had ask for help and then I wouldn't be like I am right now. Its was around the second semester that I got into my head that I was going to move to my home country but it never happen when the time came. It was the money that was holding me back. The main reason would be, well, I'm still trying to figure that out.

Maybe its because I want to go to Japan so bad and learn the language there. But then, I have no guarantee I could travel there even if I was in my home country. Sure I could get the passport but then where would I get the money to pay for the travel there? Specially since people hardly make any money working in Mexico. But who am I to judge a country to where I haven't to a long time. I won't know how bad it is until I experience it. Who knows, I could probably make more money since my English is good but then my Spanish isn't the best. That's why I wish I had a few hundred -thousand dollars and I would be on my way. Even with fifty-thousand dollars I could start my new journey. The only thing that is stopping me from doing what I want is that, the lack of money. Living in the same city for so many years and not getting anywhere gives me those toughs.

More on this later